When you’re unsure of life it is best to not make any decisions.

lucretia:

never considered beautiful a knee tattoo before this.

fuckyeahtattoos:

I got this done by Danny, at Marlowe Ink. This is a second part to my best friends and I quote. It goes “Chance mude us friends, Hearts made us sisters.” I got it on my left and she got it on her right.

Love this!

It finally feels like fall. Which makes It more difficult to get out of bed.

What happened today was spectacular. Someone who just moved to cali, and doesn’t know anyone I know stumbled across my Facebook and is now getting extensions. Fabulous!

I have been disappointed by movies lately. Change up was awful, should’ve seen captain America.

Be inspired.

Nobody likes change. It’s scary and I don’t know anyone who prefers it. It’s scary and it leaves things uncertain. I’m excited to go visit my brother in Hawaii but am scared that I will love it and won’t want to leave. I am also scared that I will hate it and then feel like I’m stranded and will have to move on to plan b, except there isn’t one. Either way I will probably move there. Leave everything behind and be whoever I want. That’s the beauty of moving someplace where nobody knows you. It’s scary but good. I have always been comfortable, I always go back to old habits….they don’t always die hard.

my best friend and i stopped being friends in july, i will never really know the reason but i feel as though it doesnt matter now. i was more than shocked when i recieved a text from her asking what i was doing tonight…my heart rate sped up and i started to feel nauscious. i was angry and excited and curious and upset. why now? why after 3 months, what could you possibly have to say? but i agreed to meet for drinks. i felt like lc and heidi from the hills, and essentially thats what it was. there was no rhyme or reason just a bunch of rumors. sharing half of your life with someone tends to acquire quite a few memories, the best time, the worst times, everything. and when it ends its like a divorce, you divide up things and cut off all ties. you can say how angry you are, how much you hate the person, but when they come back you never know how youre going to react.

i feel vunerable letting her back into my life, but also happy. its hard to not be. last night i came to the conclusion that telling people will only create problems and will only stir up judgement, and truth be told i just dont care. i dont want to hear what people think, im 21 and can take care of myself. i know they are just being protective and mean well, but i already know these things. things take time and im still hurting and unsure but you only live once. if someone wants to be a part of your life they will make the effort and at the end of the day isnt that what matters? we spend so much time trying to get the attention of people that dont care about us and im still trying to figure out why that is.

i believe that some things happen for a reason and i believe that some things happen and theres nothing you can do about it. but i always believe that whatever is meant to be will be.

Today I have done nothing but procrastinate. I have been up since 8 am but have only eaten a blueberry waffle and rode my bike (its brand new and pink). When i told my best friend this she replied, “sounds good to me, it is summer you know.” She’s right except I should be getting my room organized, my material  belongings are taking over the entire house since i have moved back home much sooner than expected.

I am not sure how to use this thing, but i will try to make a more exciting post later on.